Hyde
09-28-2009, 09:27 PM
I want to start off by saying that I love this place and all you crazy people, and that I'm not leaving the community or anything like that.
I'm just stepping down as Site Director.
I'm sure that's going to piss people off, that I'm doing it now, when we've been talking about trying to bring the site back and get the forums going again and all that. To those of you that are mad, I'd like to say that I'm sorry. I really am.
But this past weekend had me thinking a lot about what the fuck is going on in my life, about the dreams I'll never accomplish for one reason or another, and the ones I CAN accomplish. And I came to a point of clarity where I realized that I'm not pushing hard enough, not doing nearly enough, to progress to what I want out of life for myself, my son, and for my career.
I have goals. A long list of things I want to do, want to be a part of, and want to accomplish in my life as an artist. This year has shown me I have a good stepping stone towards those things. I've been able to be a part of several art shows, been able to do work for charity and been involved with published writers and artists on projects that are the kinds of things I've been dreaming of. But I've also been lazy, and barely shooting, and not doing the kinds of things I SHOULD be doing to achieve what I want.
I have to change that. I need to put the time and the effort into getting the things I want and achieving my dreams. Therefore, I sadly have no time to put the effort into resurrecting this place. As much as I love the AllRPG Community, we don't have the passion for it as a community we used to and I can't spend the extra time doing something that has no bearing on the things I want to do and that isn't putting any money in my pocket to help me do them. The site is dead. I'm letting endgamermag.com lapse when it comes around.
However, I'll not stop hosting the forums. They'll be here as long as everyone wants them to be. And I'll still be around as part of everything. I just can't keep up being the director of what has become a ghost that I can neither exorcise nor resurrect on my own.
I hope you all understand.
Thank you.
I'm just stepping down as Site Director.
I'm sure that's going to piss people off, that I'm doing it now, when we've been talking about trying to bring the site back and get the forums going again and all that. To those of you that are mad, I'd like to say that I'm sorry. I really am.
But this past weekend had me thinking a lot about what the fuck is going on in my life, about the dreams I'll never accomplish for one reason or another, and the ones I CAN accomplish. And I came to a point of clarity where I realized that I'm not pushing hard enough, not doing nearly enough, to progress to what I want out of life for myself, my son, and for my career.
I have goals. A long list of things I want to do, want to be a part of, and want to accomplish in my life as an artist. This year has shown me I have a good stepping stone towards those things. I've been able to be a part of several art shows, been able to do work for charity and been involved with published writers and artists on projects that are the kinds of things I've been dreaming of. But I've also been lazy, and barely shooting, and not doing the kinds of things I SHOULD be doing to achieve what I want.
I have to change that. I need to put the time and the effort into getting the things I want and achieving my dreams. Therefore, I sadly have no time to put the effort into resurrecting this place. As much as I love the AllRPG Community, we don't have the passion for it as a community we used to and I can't spend the extra time doing something that has no bearing on the things I want to do and that isn't putting any money in my pocket to help me do them. The site is dead. I'm letting endgamermag.com lapse when it comes around.
However, I'll not stop hosting the forums. They'll be here as long as everyone wants them to be. And I'll still be around as part of everything. I just can't keep up being the director of what has become a ghost that I can neither exorcise nor resurrect on my own.
I hope you all understand.
Thank you.