Hey all. Seems like a long time.

[LagDragon]

Just needed to get some things off my chest. I know I haven't been around very much over the summer, and I'm sorry. My life is pretty much upside down right now.

First of all, I've been working my ass off trying to get enough money together to afford my first house. I've been meeting with mortage brokers and contractors and all sorts of shit, not to mention working nights and weekends. It's been kind of stressful.

On top of all that, I've been becoming increasingly fed up with my girlfriend. A girl I used to love with all my heart. And it finally came to a boiling point. Over the weekend I ended up getting drunk and cheating on her. I feel like the biggest dick in the world, because all she ever did was love me more than anybody else ever has. She was my sweetheart and I betrayed her.

I don't know how this happened. I never imagined I could do something like this, especially to somebody I loved. I feel worse than I ever have before and it's killing me that I can't make things right. Everybody always says that you don't appreciate what you've got until it's gone. Well they're right. I'm the biggest fool you'll ever meet, and now I have to live with all this guilt and shame.

Anyways... I just wanted to let you guys know what's been going on with me. I'll try and stop in more to check up on things, but I can't make any promises. I hope all is well with you guys and hopefully things will get better for me.

I'll be in touch.

~ Lag.

[Indigo]

bad lag BAAAAAD!

But if she doesn't forgive you, I do <33 . DAMN THAT ALCOHOL!!

welcome back.

[UO_Duck]

okay.

[LagDragon]

I told her. I couldn't keep it from her. I told her everything and now things are over. I'm honestly more upset that I've hurt her and that I'm putting her through this than anything else.

[Indigo]

There will be more.

I'm sure her best friend will be texting every other girl, before you know it you'll have a pussy to cry on.

I kid.

Cheer up will ya? :)

[Phakiel]

I love you Lag, keep the hope alive.

[Atlas]

Lag, I've been there buddy. My last SERIOUS relationship lasted for two years, and I thought I would even marry her. But, like the dipshit I can be, I ruined things by cheating.

Sorry, dude. I hope you stay in contact with us. We definitely miss you around these parts.

Good luck, friend.

[Polygon]

Man, I'm sorry to hear that and I wish I could relate but I can't. Good luck with the house. I can relate there. It's a catch 22. Houses are affordable but getting financing is a joke.

Take it easy man.

[Cyrus the virus]

I'm really sorry to hear it, Lag, but I know exactly why you did what you did and understand. I won't judge you, but we both know it's shitty behavior.

Send me a PM sometime and let's dialogue. This can be a nice place to unwind and let off some steam, so feel free.

[Sushi_b]

Wow, we were really missing you Lag. That's quite a sticky situation you've got there. All the best working it out. Even though we are just "internet friends" we're here for you and will give advice or help anyway possible. Keep your head up and things will work out.

[Blackdragon]

Welcome back man. Sorry to hear about what's going on in your life. If you need more time to get things situated, then take time to do so.

[~Chachamaru_Karakuri~]

Lag, i may not know you very well, but if you wanna talk to someone who has the slightest bit of the ability to help other people with problems like this, or if you just want to vent, you can always seek me out, i will be there to help you, or listen. remember this too, everyone here, not just me, is willing to help you too, cause that is what friends do, they help each other.

[Devil King]

Lag, i may not know you very well, but if you wanna talk to someone who has the slightest bit of the ability to help other people with problems like this, or if you just want to vent, you can always seek me out, i will be there to help you, or listen. remember this too, everyone here, not just me, is willing to help you too, cause that is what friends do, they help each other.

Exactly.

Hope everything puts itself back into place, and forgiveness is a trait that everyone should have. I hope she has it, make her understand.

[Jarrid]

I was wondering what in the hell you were doing, Lag.

Sorry to hear about all this, man. Like a few of us have said already, we like to have you around here, and if you need to vent, you damn well better. Hope things work out for the best, buddy.

[Less Than Liz]

I told her. I couldn't keep it from her. I told her everything and now things are over. I'm honestly more upset that I've hurt her and that I'm putting her through this than anything else.
Is this the same chick who cheated on you?

[Serge]

Lag I have known you for years, hell I've always known you to be a good guy. Man, like you and everyone else has said... yeah its a shitty thing you did. Blah blah blah, ok I agree. Shit man, you're allowed to feel bad about this, but everyone makes mistakes, you fucked up son. Eventually, when you're ready, you will have to forgive yourself.

Now get back to work!


I joke...eh, you'll be alright.

[Jarrid]

I joke...eh, you'll be alright.

Was that some kind of Canadian pun there, Paul?

Man. . .

[Void]

I used to think cheating was one of the worst thing in the world. My opinion has changed a lot as I've thought about it though. ANYONE can be a cheater, despite what they say. I've been involved in situations where the other person was cheating, and I've come close to doing it myself. It's not the greatest feeling in the world, but it's also not the worst thing, by far. She'll heal with time, and so will you.

[LagDragon]

Is this the same chick who cheated on you?

Yeah. That's what all my friends keep reminding me. Her friends too, actually. They've been more supportive of me, which is really strange. I went out with a few of her girlfriends last night, and it made me feel a whole lot better about everything.

They filled me in on some other things I should've known about this particular ex-girlfriend. So now I don't feel nearly as bad. I still wish I would've handled things differently.

Lag I have known you for years, hell I've always known you to be a good guy. Man, like you and everyone else has said... yeah its a shitty thing you did. Blah blah blah, ok I agree. Shit man, you're allowed to feel bad about this, but everyone makes mistakes, you fucked up son. Eventually, when you're ready, you will have to forgive yourself.

Thanks, buddy. And I know you're right.

I used to think cheating was one of the worst thing in the world. My opinion has changed a lot as I've thought about it though. ANYONE can be a cheater, despite what they say. I've been involved in situations where the other person was cheating, and I've come close to doing it myself. It's not the greatest feeling in the world, but it's also not the worst thing, by far. She'll heal with time, and so will you.

That's the only way to look at it really. The strangest part right now is that I think she wants me to fight for our relationship, but I don't know if my heart's in it anymore. Actually, I'm pretty sure it's not.

Thanks for all the advice and shit, guys and Liz. You guys are awesome.

[Matron]

Well if your heart is truly not in it, then just let her go. If not, there is a very good chance that you will just end up resenting her in the long run. Just keep it a clean break and move on with your life, that's my advice, especially if you are learning more not so great girlfriend qualities about her.

[Less Than Liz]

bffs lylas

[LagDragon]

No offense, Liz, but you've never been great with advice.

Just thought I should mention that.

[Raidou]

Cheer up dude. Chill up a little. Don't think too much, not healthy. Just go with the flow in life. BTW, cheating on your girlfriend is wrong, don't listen to Void. Tell her about your mistake, if she doesnt accept it, move on. Trying to stay on in a relationship that doesnt work anymore only adds more suffering for everyone. Is better to let go earlier now than to hold on in a already doom relationship longer. The longer it last, the deeper the hurtings in feelings and emotions. Take care dude.

[Void]

I didn't say cheating is a good thing.... But really, sometimes it is. Sometimes it's REALLY good.

But I wouldn't know.