So as this has been my outlet for my what appears to be quite insane dating life, I shall tell you something that happened in May.
So this girl I was seeing coms back from her job overseas and we sort of start seeing each other but in a lesser etent than before. One sunday I am on the verge of an emotional collapse, I am hating my job, my grandfather is too sick, my romantic life is like a cruel joke imposed by the universe, so all my life feels like shit all of the sudden. A friend calls me and for some reason she is also on the same page, so we go out drinking. Close to midnight we are completely plastered and two things come out of this: a) the eurotrip we had planned now its a necessity, we disscuss how we are close to 30, single, somewhat properous "adults" and we need a couple weeks of complete and utter embarrasment to whatever people consider holy and proper, and b) I am pissed off at the girl I am seeing because its going nowhere, and even though we are not exclusive it bothers me that I havent hooked up with anybody recently (saline sollution girl was in february) and she has.
Flash forward to wednesday and I am with a couple friends, the cousin of one of them and two other chicks and their boyfriends. The cousin wants to fuck me but she is too aggresive and contentious to my likings. She doesnt "flirt" she uses straight forward shit and she just seems way too out there for my likings. A bottle of rum later, i am drunk, we hook up and I drop her of at my friend's house at 6 am, because her kid has to go to school (i know right? Whats wrong with me? Why do I attract sush baggage)
Anyway, apparently i had told her she could come over friday and I'll cook and she would spend the night, her ex husband would look after the kid.
I am not in the mood for her like at all, I hadnt like her or anything, and she wasnt attractive. So the other girl, the one I was seeing, text me on friday to invite me to a wine and dine, so i re-eschedule with the other chick to satuday and go to the wine and dine. I arrive drunk, and a couple of bottles later the girl wwants to go home so I take her, my blow up a tire (two it would seem), cant change it because I am beyond drunk, finally someone stops by and helps, we go home and just pass out because I am way too drunk. I wake up, scream when i see her in my bed, she gets pissed, wants breakfast but I just seriously cant get out of bed until 1 pm, drop her off and go have lunch with a friend.
I am texting the other girl and feel so incredibly hungover I dont want to have the date. I am at a bar with the other girl and our friends and they want to continue the party, the other girl is texting me, I try to change the date to sunday lunch, she gets pissed so I say ok, tell the other girl I am going home and go pick up the other chick.
We go home, watch some bullshit movie I forgot about, and I just fall asleep because I dont really want to fuck this girl anymore. She snores through the entire night, like very heavy snores, worst snores I have ever seen on a woman, worse than me. Come morning I just want this chick to leave. We are at the lunch table talking and she asks why I didnt have sex with her the night before so I ddecide fuck it and say that i just really dont feel like this would be going anywhere past this day and that I dont like to just have sex for the sake of it so wont be doing it. She cries, for some reason, a friend tells me it was because she probably did see this going somewhere. She tells me all this personal shit about her life, her mother committing suicide, her father being a dick, she having had sex with 50 men (I KNOW, how the fuck do you fuck 50 dudes? I think i will get married and die before I reach 50, its ridiculous), her kid, her ex husband. Ugh too much.
Two hours later we are fucking. I feel like shit. I lock myself in the bathrrom for like an hour. Walk out fully dressed, she wants too fool around again but I am not in the mood at all. I dont want to see this girl, I wante her out of my house, I am just overly pissed now. I fall asleep and wake up an hour or so after and she is curled onto me and i just slip ot and go to the computer and text friends about wanting this girl out of my house.
I wake her up around 6 and tell her I have to take her home because I just dont want to drive at night. On the way to her home I dont talk at all, dont say goodbye, nothing.
Thats why I dont like random hook ups, particularly when I am emotionally weak, I make bad decissions and go home with girls I dont like.